Daily Archives: October 10, 2011
Writing is like being in a world of magic, a place where you make all the rules, where you have all the powers and its the best kind of magic you can imagine! Words have the powers to become whatever you want! Their essence, their soul, their cores shine and give strength to the world created around it! There’s no wands and no mystical beings; just magicians and their spells- looking to create the best magic!
For me, writing isn’t just a hobby, its a necessity! I started a long time ago, maybe when I was in grade six or seven- can’t even recall correctly- when I penned down a short story in my rough notebook during english class one day. I remember handing it over to my teacher for a read, hoping to get a nice happy response. There wasn’t a response at all.
Years passed. Times changed. I changed. It was depression that took over me. Insecurities, jealousies and anger. I had no friends, no close allies. I rarely talked to anyone, even my family. Yeah, major anger issues. But things would get too stifling at times and no matter how much I pretended to be alright, I needed a getaway. Books became my sanctuary.
When I first started reading books, I was fascinated. There was so much in each and every book. A new reality, a new world! Whatever I imagined would turn out to be on the paper, an alternative with a happy ending. I went on a rampage, reading as many books a day as I could. As many a week. The librarian was under the policy to never issue a student more than a single book per day but he’d allow me to take as many as Id want, without even registering them. When there’d be new books, he’d put them all aside for me. No one else got the same privilege.
My imagination was running wild. I started penning poems-on my notebooks, books, torn pieces of paper, tissues. It was a wild time. I doubt I even have one fourth of the poems I wrote then in my collection. They were an amateurs work, even childish, but they were the beginning. And then came the next big step. Stories.
To date, Ive started a handful of stories-all still in my harddisk in raw form. Times changed. I changed. I made friends, became social, went to college, got a degree, a subsequent job. My family is the love of my life now. In the little time that I had between studying and socializing and sleeping, I advanced on my stories. They’re all done in a way that they’ve been built up well to the point of an intro or even the concept, chapters done from the middle or ends. I started, yes, but theres still miles to go. I hope I get time to run those miles. I want to see what my magic looks like. I know what it feels like [Thats the best part of being a writer, you feel the emotions so closely] but I wanna see how the world perceives it and how it truly stands. I hope one day I can.
Again, as my Unni once said
“For weirdos like us (;P) writing can sometimes be more about retaining sanity than creating a publishable work..”
In my case and I’m sure many other people, that’s exactly true! 🙂
Today was hectic! Totally hectic! I spent half the day simmering in anger for one reason or another! This is totally not how I wanted to end my relationship with this office. And the fact that Ive learned one of my ex superiors from here has some kind of grudge against me and has been bad mouthing me behind my back is so not helping!
As it so happens, 15th October is my last day there. And even though Ive been working there for like three months already (July and onwards) October is my fourth month there but I have yet unresolved issues with management.
When I joined up, I was given the post of a trainee Architect. Fine by me, but HR gave me a letter of appointment of Interneeship/Traineeship. Again, it wasnt much of an issue, except, they dont happen to realize the difference between trainees and internees. And though I tried to get them to review it, my pleas fell on deaf ears and I ended up just keeping shut about it. I hoped it wouldn’t raise much issues in the future, but alas, I was proven wrong today!
Anyway, back to history, after the end of my second month, in the end days of august, I ran after HR for a few days asking them to give me my appointment letter now that I had passed the one month not-payable probationary period. They told me they’ll issue it in a day or two. I was glad it wasn’t causing me much fatigue. Oh how wrong I was!
Two days later, I received my “letter” and was informed by HR to contact finance and receive my Cash Award by the MD for “Outstanding Performance” of ten thousand rupees. When I opened my “letter”, it turned out to be an appreciation letter! As far a cry as possible from the appointment letter I had asked for!
And so passed the second month, without pay.
In the middle of the third month, I became too depressed and exhausted to work further. The politics of the place was too dirty and the people not so different either. In the end, I had a bit of a fight with the MD which ended in friendly terms, and with me being told I shouldnt leave just yet and all my grievances would be answered. Three days later, it was pay day, and I got my lump sum amount of 10,000.
At first I thought it was probably my pay. Two days later, HR came and told me to have my clearance done (and get lost) now that my traineeship period had ended. Another meeting with the MD told me I was indeed about to be sent either on entrepreneurship (and hence off the payroll) or onto the institute to teach. The company had gone into debts trying to stay out of deep waters and the MD was now starting the process of downsizing. Me and a friend were the first to go.
We had a tea party held in our honor at the end of the week (which I was unable to attend) and now theres just five more days that we have to put up at the office till we get our clearance and are free!
But those five days were bound not to be peaceful as well! Today, on the fifth last day, I had another major fight with HR (That guy never seems to learn) regarding my pay. I was supposed to be paid 10K per month but he only paid me 10K for two months. And seemed to think that was it. I went to the other “incharge” for monetary and personnel affairs with my case. There was a bit of debating, after which I was told me case was a bit “too complicated” and that I had better go back n see the MD. I did, and he authorized I be paid 10K for every month, even the probationary period. And that the cash award I got, was not part of my pay! And yes, even he agreed the HR Manager was a bit …. ahem ahem… Let’s not repeat the exact words. 😛
Tomorrows going to be another adventure! We [Me and my pal] have to get our letters of recommendation from the MD [He gave us the liberty to write them ourselves and hell sign them after a read] and I have to specifically get a signed letter from the MD detailing my payroll and all and pass that to the HR manager. Maybe then it’ll finally settle in his mind! Muhuhahahahaha 😀
Ah, it’s late and I’m tired! So I’m off to sleep! Gotta get enough rest for any upcoming battles for tomorrow! After all, better not look down at the number of days left! 🙂